LEIPZIG REMEMBERED – PART ONE

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Leipzig Railways Station

Picking up on the topic of the GDR following Monday’s blog, I’m happy to to post a piece I wrote about my three months in Leipzig as a student.

LEIPZIG REMEMBERED – PART ONE

This was a scene out of a film.

Feeling lost and lonely I stared ever more desolately at the baggage conveyor belt. Most of the other passengers’ bags had long since been picked, just one rather large black suitcase lumped its way round. However I was not alone, being surrounded by twelve  other students from my German department. Most of them increasingly frustrated and angry as I refused to accept the inevitable. My suitcase – my lifeline for the next three months – did not make it to Berlin! Furthermore I would be going to a place where there would barely be anything to buy as replacement, as we soon had to cross Berlin for the train to Leipzig, then in East Germany. My friend led, no, dragged, me to report the missing bag. Many forms later detailing descriptions, address of where we were staying – ie. no idea as yet and only had contact name via Karl-Marx University in Leipzig, we were ready to leave. At least my German was getting a lot of early practice!

Hardly able to contain my tears I left the arrivals hall clutching a paper with Leipzig airport’s telephone number to where my suitcase would be forwarded. This delay turned out to be a lucky for me as the next two hours my fellow students completed the equivalent of the Berlin weightlifting championship en route to the Zoogarten train station in central West Berlin.

Up and down the underground, carrying bags up long flights of stairs, then down again. Lifting them onto tube trains. Groans, moans all around and definitely a few pulled shoulders. The Leipzig student who met us and took us into the town had obviously had not been to Berlin before as we later discovered. Returning home three months later we simply got off the train at Zoogarten station and onto the airport bus outside the station. Easy.

Aching, fed-up we were finally about to enter our first Communist country. We were noisily excited, as only those confident of freedom can be. We queued in long thin barricaded maze rows and at the passport control there were at least two East German officers in each booth plus the guards, as well as the mirror behind you. Now a small sense of intimidation set in , but only so briefly. We were in East Berlin! In East Germany! The wall had been breached a few months earlier but it was still very much a separate state, in a state of limbo, except for the increased freedom to travel, many restrictions and limitations still applied.

It was a while before our train so we took turns to guard the bags as we popped outside to explore Alexanderplatz. We tried hard not to be disappointed but the word grim sprung to mind. Grim and bitter. A huge grey square with stark grey buildings set back and lit up by dirty yellow light. Very bleak, very cold-war era.
BerlinBy now we were getting hungry and having finished our meagre supplies we were shown the way to a ‘restaurant’. I use the word loosely. No seating area, standing tables only. I ordered the least offensive sounding dish – soup and bread. Green mush arrived with big fatty sausage dumped on top. The bread was stale, the mush barely edible. The sausage bears no mention. This was as good as the food got whilst eating out, except at the few West German stall traders who came across the border and served delicious pizza slices with chips. We soon learnt to stock up on food when travelling and often went to West Berlin to buy ‘luxury’ items.

watchtowerThe train rattled in and with more heaving all the bags were carried on board, stowed away and we flopped thankfully into the seats. Old-fashioned, friendly train, seats facing each other. By now so tired we barely exchanged words as we stared out in to the darkness. We showed our tickets to man in long black leather coat – was this really a ticket inspector? Was paranoia already settling in? We saw many of these men on our travels and they were an excellent deterrent to fare-dodging.

Just before our arrival  in Leipzig we went through an area called Bitterfeld. It was a scene of utter devastation. All the trees were dead and only a metre of trunk remained visible. It was completely lacking in vegetation, animal life or light. No houses. Just miles of desolation. Later we found out that Bitterfeld had been labelled the most polluted area in Europe – what an honour! Industry had killed off all plant and animal life and the average life-expectancy was far lower for the workers in the factories nearby. On future trips as we travelled through we tried to hold our breath and avoid contamination. Silly, I know!

At last at our destination – Leipzig! The station was grand with up to sixteen platforms, a most beautiful lofty glass vaulted ceiling stretching the length of the station. It was as if we had been transported to the 1950s with long large trains pulling out to exotic-named places, Prague, Budapest, Warsaw but a few. Dutifully awed we met the man who was to be our mentor  – Herr M.

It is not often I take an utter dislike and distrust of someone on first meeting, but Herr M. was an exception. Looking around I could see I was not the only one so affected, eleven of us felt the same and the impression on subsequent meetings only reinforced this opinion. One student was innately innocent and couldn’t see bad in anyone or anything and she spent the next few months in contented delusion. The only time her sense of justice was riled occurred during a visit to the local zoo which she fled  in tears, crying over its barbaric treatment of the animals.

Before departing the UK our Head of Department had hinted, albeit never stated directly, that there were rumours, very possibly true, that Herr M. had worked/was working for the Stasi. We were told to watch what we said. (A while after reunification it turned out Herr M. was arrested as a spy, but I never did find out what happened after that. )

At last we were nearing the end of our journey,. More dragging, carrying of bags to a block of flats, conveniently located near the station. A creaky lift carried us up to the fourth floor and a room. We crammed into the room which had two bunk beds, a wardrobe, two desks and a shower room. My despair returned as I faced a night without any clothes, toiletries. Nothing. Quickly everyone was allocated into different rooms. My name by the end had not been mentioned. Herr M. looked triumphantly at me and said I was staying in this room, so far by myself! My friends rallied round me with spare toothbrush, knickers, socks, nightie, top and I quickly made note of their room numbers as they disappeared.

The place was covered in black dirt. The beds, unmade, exposed a mattress in three parts. It was so hot I opened the window, only to close them again against the cacophony of rattling crashing trams. Of course with time the noise became a source of comfort to me and I would wake up when they stopped for the hour between two and three in the morning. But that night I covered my ears with the minuscule pillow, then stuffed my ears with cotton wool, then sang to myself. All to no avail.  Nothing, absolutely nothing could obliterate the noise.

They say things always look brighter in the morning. Try coming to Leipzig. Borrowed clothes, no food or drink, no sleep, no contact with the outer world. One of my first priorities was to discover where the phones were. The main telephone exchange was located at the station where we learned to bring our books and work as often we waited one to two hours for a phone to be made available. You had to book the phone, wait to be called into the booth and afterwards pay for the call. Patience was learnt early on. Not then the world of mobiles and tablets.

TO BE CONTINUED IN MY NEXT POST…

LEIPZIG REMEMBERED – PART TWO

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This is the continuation of Thursday’s post, writing about the first days upon our arrival in Leipzig, in the former East Germany, with my suitcase stranded in England and waking up in a very foreign country.

LEIPZIG REMEMBERED – PART TWO

That first morning my three friends and I gathered in my room to draw up a plan of action. First some breakfast, then we had an orientation meeting at the university with our mentor. Bread rolls and water was our breakfast and then we looked at the map.

The communist GDR did not believe in maps per se. This was more a map a seven-year-old would produce, with pretty pictures for where buildings etc were located, hardly accurate. Only a couple of street names were provided and furthermore no sense of scale as we soon discovered since most of the buildings were drawn in the wrong place and large boulevards were left out.We made our way to the north of the city, getting hopelessly lost but we had out goal in sight. A large tower building some Finnish students had told us to look out for.

Leipzig, Karl-Marx-Platz, Universitätshochhaus, "Neues Gewandhaus"

After many mistakes we finally made it to the front doors and were told which floor we needed for Herr M.’s office. Let us say floor 12. Four lifts, two on either side of the foyer beckoned us. We carefully read the instructions and found the elevator for floor 12. Confidently we stepped in and pressed the button.

The lifts of the Karl-Marx University have single-handedly resulted in my terror of elevators. Floor 12 rushed past. We panicked, first  stabbing at the button, then at any button and at last the lift stopped on floor 19. Just one from the top. The doors opened. Absolute silence. Brown carpet and walls. Doors closed again and off we went again. We fell down. We were sure the cable had broken as our feet started to lift from the floor. At 2 we jarred to a halt. One of my friends dashed out as the door opened and said she would try the another  lift.

We persevered and soon were quite expert at riding up and down at terrifying speeds. At last the closest we got to stop was floor 14 and we got out and found the steps to walk down. Never in three months did we actually manage to get the lift to stop on 12. By now the whole building seemed to be leaning slightly – or was that just a reaction to the ‘roller coaster’ ride?

Herr M.’s office was not unpleasant and after receiving all sorts of useless information I asked for help with tracking down my suitcase. He seemed to find it mildly funny and lent me a phone – not until later did I realise how exulted I was to borrow a normal working phone. No news of the bag, call tomorrow. I felt sick to the pit of my stomach. We left, walked down a few floors before finding a lift to carry us the rest of the way.

On our own in Leipzig. Shall we call that first day – survival?  Once again we were hungry and as we had just been told about the university canteen nearby off we went – at least it was easy enough to find. When would we learn! Food was piled on our plate, regardless if we wanted it. All inedible. Hunger we learnt was to become a permanent state of affair, only truly staved off in West Berlin where we ate sumptuously. With no lunch we headed to the supermarket. This was to become a daily battleground. Daily as no bread or milk would keep for more than one night.

There were two supermarkets to choose from, equally chaotic. At least there wasn’t all those annoying queues around fruit and vegetables – there were hardly any to have. We picked some potatoes and spent another thirty minutes finding out how to pay for them. First to a lady  had to weigh them. On the opposite side of the shop another lady then had to price them up. Finally we had to pay for them at the cashier. Morrisons seemed like  heaven once home again.

Of course, there was full employment here. We quickly learnt to look at people around us and learn from them.  Milk came in small plastic bags. Most drinks were pop with bottles tops so after food shop we sett off in search of  bottle openers. We found a department store – mostly empty but with one ginormous basket of bottle openers. Brilliant. We were all set.

After one more night of borrowed clothes I woke up with severe backache. Well, not really but a rumour was going round from the Finnish students (our survival expert helpers) that if you complained about backache to housekeeping you would be given one complete mattress.

Three of us took our bits of mattresses down and bravely knocked on the door of the housekeeper. Very scary, as the ‘witch’ herself opened it. She was probably a very pleasant serene lady with sparkling personality. To us she barked out questions in guttural German. We guessed her queries, replied meeker by the minute, all ready to flee with our old mattresses never to return.

Surprise, surprise, no argument. We were told new mattresses would be delivered to our room and old ones were taken away. We glowed with triumph and had a celebratory drink sitting on bed-slats. For two nights I had been in the room alone. A most unusual situation as many students were five or seven to two bedrooms and one bathroom. I awaited my roommate with trepidation, having been informed that I was the only English student to actually be sharing with an East German.

The next morning as I was getting dressed E. turned up. She had arrived late in the term as she had been at her parents house in the country. She seemed very friendly, my own age, just chatty enough.

Suddenly, mid-conversation her face clouded over. What had I done? Had I said  something insulting without even realising it?

‘Do you believe what you read about me in the paper?’ she asked.

‘What?!’ I replied, totally flummoxed. She then explained that her former roommate from England had written an article for ‘The Independent’ about E.

My first reaction was to be impressed that someone so young had  an article published in the paper. My second thought was  that ‘The Independent’  was  usually a reliable paper. I answered that I had not seen the article and did she have a copy. The article accused E. of working for the Stasi, of spying on the English student, going through her possessions, writings, being very unpleasant and rude throughout. I gave a noncommittal answer and for the next hour or so silence.

Then normal conversation resumed and a sense of détente achieved. I do not know if the article had any truth in it. I do know that  E. was friendly to me when she was there, which was not often. Once she very kindly invited me to her parents house where I spent a weekend of pure bliss. Fresh food, good chocolate and a big bathroom with a bath.

I am sure they still remember this strange visitor who locked herself in the bathroom for over an hour. Washing my hair squeaky clean. No black incipient grime anywhere. Lovely bubbles, beautiful fragrances. Countryside, animals, walks in unpolluted air. No trabbies. As I said, pure bliss and for that I was very grateful to E.

Day three arrived and by now I was resigned to never seeing my suitcase again. I decided one final call was in order before I tried to find some clothes to buy. For quick phone access I resorted to Herr M.’s office, visiting under some other pretext and finally asking for his help. I was astounded to learn that my suitcase was safely in Leipzig airport and that I must now only turn up to collect it! Trabbies

The airport was not far from town, but it might as well have been half a day away as this was how long it took to retrieve it. With no direct links to the airport I needed to hire a taxi. For this risky operation I enrolled the help of my friend and we approached a trabbie cab.

The trabbies were just as tiny inside as they looked from the outside. We squashed in the back and arrived safely at the small airport. The suitcase was waiting for me and I was filled with such joy it was ridiculous. Only a bag after all but I was now ready to face whatever East Germany had to offer. The one bag filled the boot and we saw the car sink. Would it manage with us in the back as well?

We clambered in via the driver’s seat and snuggled together yet again. Our joy was short-lived as on the motorway the driver suddenly stopped and got out. We had heard bad things about the taxis here, hence my initial concern.

We had supposedly ran out of petrol and it was indicated that some Deutsch Mark would help. We said we had nothing else beside the original fare and stuck to our ground. Time passed. Our driver left to talk to others. Should we stay trapped in the car or get out? If we got out might he abandon us and  drive away with my bag? I felt ever more attached to my bag and didn’t want to let it out of my sight again.

We stayed and after half an hour a police car stopped by our driver. Loud angry words were exchanged and meekly our driver returned and drove us back to town. Hurrah! At last I had arrived.

MOTHERLAND: A BOOK REVIEW

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Painting: Courtesy of B. Haynie

MOTHERLAND BY JO MCMILLAN

Welcome to my second book review.badge_proreader

MotherlandCoverToday’s book is of special interest to me as it is partly set in former East Germany during the late 1970s. Having spent three months at the Karl Marx Univeristy in Leipzing before reunification I was keen to see how well  the author captured the GDR’s unique and complicated spirit? How well and accurately she portrayed the places and its people?

The answer to both these questions is resounding very well indeed.

Written in the first person of 13-year-old Jess, Motherland follows three years of her life as a communist believer whilst living in Tamworth. Her mother, Eleanor, is a staunch socialist  (communism is in the blood) and she works ceaselessly for the cause whilst at the same time being employed as a teacher.

To start with the writing style is comic in places, wonderfully fluid and light.  Of her mother, Jess says “…her communist beliefs. Card-carrying. Chronic. As if it were a medical condition”.

As a child at Grammar School Jess suffers for her beliefs; facing both scorn and physical punishment from both the pupils and members of staff.  Miss Downing, the headmistress, regards Jess “with a dead father and a communist other, … as good as orphaned”. As it was Jess’s father died before she was born. “Each just the other side of life.”

Tamworth is unreceptive, and at times violent, to Eleanor’s zealous campaigning and Jess herself  describes it as “…that’s what you did with Time in this town, filled it. Because you weren’t born with a life, but a giant hole”.

No wonder therefore that Eleanor and Jess are overjoyed to receive the opportunity to travel to East Germany for a summer whilst Eleanor takes on teaching classes. Finally they are being offered the chance to experience the socialist dream.

Their first visit fails to dampen their innocent and naive trust in the system. For Eleanor she views GDR not so much through rose-coloured spectacles, rather through technicoloured rainbow glasses. During their first visit and subsequent visits and events her indefatigable belief in the GDR never falters.

Her unsuspecting beliefs never waver whereas Jess becomes increasingly aware of the discrepancies of the promised words and reality. Whilst Jess changes during these pivotal years she continues to love and protect her mother – realising that her mother is as happy as she can be in the sharing community of the East German society.

The tension in the book mounts as Jess’s innocence is shattered and she  gradually awakens to the murkier nature of the GDR, where friend becomes foe, where one’s every move is monitored, reported. Where paranoia is the norm.The first cracks in Jess’s beliefs are created through her friendship with an East German girl, Martina.  Her mother befriends and later falls for Martina’s father, Peter.  The friendship between the four will have devastating repercussions for them all.

As the book develops so does the language, mimicking Jess’s own internal development. From her comic language at such events as her childhood attempt to defect to the GDR, the language becomes more serious and sophisticated as Jess becomes unwittingly deeper involved in the intelligence world. It’s a most successful transition in writing style.

The author creates not only the sense of 1970s East Germany, with its Berlin Wall, grey cities, idyllic countryside, Bitterfeld, Buchenwald, Zwickau, endless monument visits and of course the trabbies;  she also captures the spirit of the UK with its CND, National Front, Thatcher – and not forgetting the Angel Delight!

This book is not what I expected – more complex, multi-layered. Funny and sad with great characters who succeeded in getting under my skin and living with me long after I had finished the book. It’s most surprising and well-worth a read.

Book Rating: Smiley-face-emoticon-575-2

Publisher:  John Murray Press

Release Date: 2 Jul 2015

“Sacred space is an absolute necessity for anybody today…This is the place of creative incubation. At first you may find that nothing happens there. But if you have a sacred place and use it, something eventually will happen.”

Joseph John Campbell

ESCAPE TO AN EASTER OASIS

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Imagine a place far out in the Swedish forest.  It’s half a mile to the nearest neighbour whilst other houses are scattered miles apart. The road is a dirt track with deep ditches on either side. Just there, to the right is the property, two houses set upon a land twice the size of a football pitch. This is my haven for the next two weeks over Easter.

100_6333Pure tranquility – as pure as the air from the hundred, nay, thousands of trees around.  Pure tranquility – as pure as the water which pumps from 80 m below the ground. No television, telephone or wifi. Peace and quiet. Don’t worry though, there is electricity and all the mod cons, so we’re living in warmth and comfort.

It takes a while to tune into the silence, to hear the individual birds, to become aware of the different tones of the breeze. The tempo of our days slow until time itself seems to slacken and the days stretch appealingly in front of us. No rushing. No staring at screens.

In lieu of television an afternoon is happily spent sitting inside with a cup of tea watching the thunderstorm wreak havoc upon the land as puddles are turned into mini-lakes and the fir trees enter into a ferocious frenzied dance. We take time to listen to the hail crashing outside. The force of nature overwhelming and once again I am reminded about my small place on this planet.

In the morning I wander the land, clutching my orange juice in frigid fingers, negotiating the uneven ground in my clumsy wellies, my dressing gown flapping round my legs. I stop and raise my face to the dappled morning sunlight falling through the birch trees, whilst in the distance I spy the mist hovering above a field, drifting, floating wistfully away as the sun’s rays strike them.

In the shade I study the intricate cobwebs which lay frozen stiff, their delicate threads an intriguing puzzle of designs. Glistening in the morning frost they are small sample last night’s wondrous creations. Nature’s own art gallery, free to browse. I just have to make sure I am up early enough!

Silence. Quiet. Did I mention that? No cars. No machinery. Just the peace.

This is where I will be this Easter, relaxing, being with my family and I look forward to coming home refreshed and with renewed energy.

Although I might not be able to post until my return I do have access to my neighbours’ iPad and hope to pop across now and then and see what you’ve all been up to.

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Have a very happy Easter break everyone.

 

“Some old-fashioned things like fresh air and sunshine are hard to beat.”

Laura Ingalls Wilder

DON’T PANIC

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The Wall. 

Everyone has heard about The Wall faced by marathon runners during competitions and with family members who have run the 26.4 miles, I have listened aghast to their descriptions of pain and fatigue. In quiet awe I have seen them overcome this obstacle and continue to the finish. I  just never imagined I too would one day face the wall, not through running but through my writing. 

Although a ferocious reader since young, I honestly never considered the effort and work required to produce a book. I hold up my hands in surrender, ‘mea culpa, mea culpa’, I was one of those, taking books for granted, their magic appearance on the shelves almost a matter of routine.

Now I know better and since there is a long way until any book of mine might be produced I am fully aware that my learning curve is long and steep. I am only on the start of the  climb and have reached my first base camp.

At just under 50,000 words on my first draft I hit The Wall. Friday afternoon at ten to one. With a marathon writing session completed, I stopped typing. For the first time in a couple of hours I lifted my head from the screen and saw the white doves circling the rooftops and garden. My heart tried a bounce of joy. To no avail. Confused I headed to the kitchen, my legs heavy and my body surprisingly fatigued. A cup of tea and some biscuits, that would help. Wouldn’t it? Picking up the newspaper on the table, tea in my other hand, letters swam around in a swarm on the paper. Finally they settled into a mishmash of words, all individually comprehensible but my mind refused to stay with them and instead floated away, blitzing its way through the morning’s writings, its ideas, plots, characters, twists.  Resigned I put down my cup.

This must be my wall. My creative meltdown.

‘DON’T PANIC’. Don't Panic

The famous words written on the cover of ‘The Hitch-Hikers Guide to the Galaxy’ sprung to mind that afternoon and I found them oddly comforting.  When I thought about returning to the writing my mind froze.

Don’t Panic.

What could I manage to do? Some gardening and with secateurs in hand I turned into the demon bush pruner – with glee attacking dead twigs in the garden, cutting bushes to within a few inches of their lives. My mind did not think, it just was. Pure bliss. Afterwards housework tasks were no longer a chore, but completed with satisfaction. I knew this couldn’t hold out for too long.

Don’t Panic. 

Relaxed that the wall was being chipped away, that I would soon return to the first draft, I decided not to push too hard, to force myself against such a obstruction. By Monday afternoon ironing had lost its glow and I resumed my other writing tasks. A short story for a competition and then preparing my next blog post.

I had named this blog a journey – hoping to capture reader’s interest and imagination and bring them along on a journey as I wrote the first draft of a book. What I had not anticipated was the emotional journey within myself. 

Having read countless ‘how-to’ articles in writing magazines as well as a few books on how to write a novel I am now struck that none mentioned the emotional impact of such an undertaking.

Not until I hit the wall.  Now, with a good rest, the house gleaming and garden ready for some new plants, I am ready. With my mind exercised with alternative writing, I am ready. Refreshed both body and mind, I sit down and feverishly start typing. After all, there is another 50,000 words or so to go!

“I like the cover,’ he said. ‘Don’t Panic. It’s the first helpful or intelligent thing anybody’s said to me all day.’

Douglas Adams in ‘The Hitch-Hikers Guide to the Galaxy’.

Beak of Life

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A dull thud against the glass kitchen door broke my morning reverie.
Blissfully I had been admiring the daffodils dancing in the breeze.For a second I muttered at the four bull-finches, vexed at their monopolisation of the bird-feeder.
‘Let the others on, you bullies,’ my mind signalled to them. Did they listen?
Three BirdsNot a chance. I espied an eager robin fluttering below the feeder, then with sudden decisiveness he darted to the fence post. My patient gardening buddy, who alas has a long wait until I weed the borders and he can scour for worms left behind.
Then thwack.
Standing by the door I looked down and spotted a little grey-blue bird lying still on its side.
‘A nuthatch,’ my husband told me confidently. ‘Made a bit of a hatchet job there,’ he added, chuckling at his own witticism. I glared at him before examining the bird again.
He moved, ever so slightly, still alive!  His head and body twitched and his beady black eyes stared accusingly at me.  ‘It’s a door, to our house,’ I retorted telepathically, ‘we need those things, doors!’
Another nuthatch flew down to join his friend and nervously he hopped in circles around him.
Braving my silhouette he approached the stricken nuthatch before abruptly leaping upon him. Swiftly he gave his friend the ‘beak of life’. A couple of pecks on his head, then some around the beak of the injured bird.
It was humbling to witness this love of the avian variety.
However soon I became alarmed as the first signs of affection turned to violence. The pecking intensified to vicious jabs at the now seemingly lifeless bird.
I knocked forcefully on the glass and reluctantly the fit nuthatch skittered away to the lawn. There he  stopped and looked at his friend. I too glanced down.
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A wonder! The dazed bird wobbled uncertainly on it’s two feet. Would it soon be strong enough to hop around? Was there a chance he could fly away?  I remained hopeful and giving him peace to recover I moved away – after all there was breakfast to prepare.
With the three assorted cereals tipped into their bowls, toast ready, orange juices poured, tea pot overflowing, I cautiously edged towards the door.
Outside on the bird feeder there was the normal feeding frenzy – but on the patio or lawn there was no sign of our two special visitors who caused the morning’s excitement.
Robust and fit enough to fly away; they had departed. A little nuthatch rescued by his fellow friend.
What love, courage and devotion. My heart stilled for moment. Maybe here was a lesson for us all.
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To finish a quick message on this special Sunday here in the UK to all Mums out there –  a Happy Mother’s Day to you all and have a thoroughly enjoyable day being spoilt! I am!
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A Midwife’s Revolt: A Book Review

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Painting: Courtesy of B.Haynie

Recently I had the opportunity to join NetGalley, an online book reviewing organisation.  Publishers send in their books months prior to release and ‘professional readers’ are then asked to review the book. The feedback and recommendations are considered highly valuable to the publishers and future readers alike.

badge_proreaderI will be reviewing one new book here on my blog on a monthly basis – do look out for them and hope you enjoy the reviews.

The Midwife’s Revolt  by  Jodi Daynard

cover60583-mediumWithin the first few sentences, this book immediately and powerfully transported me to the life of women left behind home during the American Revolution.

The story follows newly-wed Lizzie Bolyston as she sets up home on a farm on the outskirts of a new town South of Boston.

Related in Lizzie’s voice the reader quickly enters the head and heart of this strong young lady as she faces increasingly tougher struggles.

Firstly grief blindsides her but with help of friends she slowly overcomes both this and then the prejudice to what is regarded as her ‘witch’ like skills of healing and midwifery. She is exceptional in both and gradually, the ‘medical arts’ taught to her by her mother, help provide a living for Lizzie whilst saving dozens of lives.

As the war deepens Lizzie finds herself embroiled in political intrigue centred around her close friend Abigail Adams, the wife of the future Second President of America. For a while Lizzie even finds herself attempting to disguise herself as a man during her espionage escapades. After all, the book starts with the sentence: ‘My father once told me I had the mind of a man.’

However this is not a traditional thriller as parallel to the assassinations and treachery runs various strands of the romantic nature.

Lizzie finds herself courted by a man, Mr Cleverly- but can she trust him? Equally she is attracted to another, Thomas Miller – yet again she is faced with the same dilemma of those unstable times – is he trustworthy?

The actions of her servant and close friend Martha also raises further doubts as to faithfulness and friendship. This suspicion causes great heart-ache for both women. Life for them all is never simple nor straight forward and nothing is quite what it seems.

I must make a quick mention to another powerful being in the book, whose existence is still etched on my brain – the wonderful and faithful horse, ‘Star’, her husband’s beloved animal. Life is never fair, Star!

Jodi Daynard’s writing is fluid throughout and its authentic contemporary feel never wavers. At times I have to remind myself this was actually a work of fiction and not a factual story.

The harsh and bleak life is brilliantly rendered, so raw I suffered with the women through their troubles and the winters of hunger. How I celebrated with them as they ate their far too rare servings of warm apple pie!

Their struggles with the farm are graphically related and whilst celebrating feminism and its strength, I rejoiced when they received the occasional help from a man with some of the hard graft.

The book climaxes with a dramatic battle on their very doorstep where the battles of the heart are reconciled and the future of America is more secured.

Although I approached this book with trepidation – the time period alone of the American Revolution  filled me with fear – I can honestly say there is never a boring moment in the book.

It has a  strong pace throughout, the characters, whether good or evil,  are vividly portrayed and the true grit and courage of the women shine through.

This is truly a gem of a book. Do read it now and escape into the past!

Publishers: Lake Union Publishing

Release date: 7th April 2015

N E W S F L A S H      N E W S F L A S H    N E W S F L A S H

I just found out that I am now on the short list on the Ink Tears Short Story Competition 2014.

Yes, I am thrilled to have reached this far.

Winners will be announced end of this month.

“From the eyes to the river
From the river to the sea
From the sea to darkening clouds
From the sky back down to me
Follow my tears…”
by Eddie Reader, singer/songwriter

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The Peripheral A Sunny Sunday morning greeting to you all.

I told you before that I have been writing since I was a girl and as a present to my patient mother I made a big collection, had it bound and gave it as a Christmas present.

I called the book  ‘The Peripheral’, which was the name of a magazine I used to produce when young for my friends and family.

Whilst visiting my mother yesterday we skimmed through the book and I saw this poem. I wrote this when I was 12-years old.  Poetry is not my forte and I was surprised to find this but wanted to share it with you as it is equally relevant today.

LOVE

Love

A thing to be cherished

Treasured forever

Love

A thing between all

From the ‘superior’ humans

To the ‘humble’ hedgehogs.

Love

A thing needy to all

Always there, ready to delight

The eager youngsters

The ageing parents.

Love

Never ask for its presence

Love, real love

Unquestioningly comes

It never falters

Or flickers away.

Love

Its strong pulse is ever near

Never closing its doors

Where happiness flows in.

Love.

“Joy is a net of love by which you can catch souls.”

Mother Theresa

Update: Current word count on first draft of novel: 40,531 words

Netflix for Books

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You’ve heard of subscription television; now prepare yourselves for subscription books – the ‘netflix for books’ is here to stay. 

What does this really mean though? 

How much brighter does this make the world for the reader and the writer ?

Is it effectively a modern day virtual library? Hardly.

Although Amazon were not the first to introduce subscription books, their release of Kindle Unlimited (KU) five months ago brought subscription books to a world wide market. At first glance the deal is enticing for readers. To be able to borrow ten books per month for £ 7.99/month sounds tempting.newcorn partII

However unless you are a exuberant bibliophile you will never read the ten books allowed and if one or two books per month is the norm, then you could find yourself paying more than you would if buying books themselves. With so many books available for exceptionally low prices the monthly direct debit could easily become more expensive.

It is not only readers who should beware and approach with caution; writers too are beginning to struggle under the Kindle Unlimited contract. 

Writers are paid a percentage amount according to the number of reads of their book. This comes from a monthly pool of money set aside by Amazon.  Already some writers have noticed a 40%-75% drop in their revenue.

Income has fallen further for writers as customers have started reading KU books instead of buying new ones. There is a real risk that buyers will read the more established authors, which might have cost more previously, instead of taking the chance on an unknown new author whose books were previously much cheaper but still cost on normal kindle or paperback.

imagesThis catastrophic decline in income has resulted in some writers withdrawing from the Kindle Unlimited programme and instead selling their books under the much more generous ebook terms. 

The extremely restrictive demand by Amazon for exclusivity on books on KU has further cut sales for authors as they have been unable to release their books on other platforms.

The top five big publishers are so far withholding most of their titles from Kindle Unlimited and therefore the choice on KU is rather limited for the reader as the top selling authors (which many people want to read) are not represented. 

Subscription books are still a force to be reckoned with as other platforms, such as scribd* or oyster, do exist and their terms are far more generous towards the writer and do not demand exclusivity. 

Finally let us not forget that faithful ‘old’ paperback and hardback books. Will their new found stability following the introduction of ebooks flounder under the onslaught of subscription ebooks? Will this become the next substantial obstacle for the publishers of hardcopy books?

Will KU see a fall in their subscription as writers flee from their terms and conditions? 

Will readers demand a better and bigger selection of books for their monthly fee? 

Will Amazon cave in to writers’ demands for similar contract terms as other subscription services and thereby tempt in the bigger-hitting authors to join them?

Do you have any experience of Kindle Unlimited? Either as a writer or as a reader? I would love to hear your comments and share your experiences. Only by doing so can we empower ourselves to make the best decisions as writers and readers.

“I find television very educating. Every time somebody turns on the set, I go into the other room and read a book.” 

Groucho Marx

THE POWER OF THE CREATIVE SPIRIT

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Welcome to you all and to the first of a new month. Spring floats on the breeze and sitting out on a weather-worn bench in the garden I rise my face to the dazzling sunlight. As the daffodils tilt and twist to capture its warmth, so do I.

On such a morning I find myself pondering the nature of the creative spirit and at times its unimaginable strength in the face of insurmountable agonies.

These musings follow in the wake of reading about Frida Kahlo. She was not an artist for which I hold any particular affection although I know of her work. What I did not know was of the life of pain she endured until her untimely passing aged only 47.

Firstly as a child she suffered from polio but made a recovery to normal life. Then aged 18 she was severely injured when the bus she was travelling on collided with a trolley car.

As a result of these injuries she was never free from pain again. In the following years she had over 35 operations and many episodes of agonising pain that resulted in her being bed-ridden for many months at a time.  Among other sorrows the physical damages rendered her unable to have children.

Where this life would fell many, Frida instead discovered, with her parents help, her love of painting and throughout her life she painted over 150 paintings. Furthermore she travelled in Central America, the USA and Europe. On a personal level she married the famous painter Diego Rivera – twice!  Throughout their tempestuous mutually adulterous relationship she never stopped painting.

The indomitable spirit of the creative being within us is alive and waiting to be tapped. It takes courage, persistence and passion to continue to work through pain and illness of any sorts. Its rewards are unquantifiable.

Reading about Frida’s life and knowing so many who continue their creative work in spite of (or perhaps as a result of) their hardships is a true inspiration – to myself and  hopefully to you all.

‘Our existence is not an accident but a mystery…We can entrust ourselves to this mystery, for we are part of it. Indeed we are it.’

By  Jean-Pierre Weil, ‘The Well of Being’